Lily Elizabeth

*This post involves talk about mental illness and self injury, might be triggering for some readers.* 1 in 6 people struggle with self injury behavior. Half of them start in their early teens and continue into their 20s. Self injury is common in those who struggle with anxiety, depression, body dysphoria, and many other mental illnesses. Self injury isn't a mental illness in itself, it is a way people cope with their emotional pain. Today marks a year and a half, 18 months, 549 days since I last self harmed. I've been terrified to talk about these things because people are quick to judge. But telling my truth can help others. I was fourteen when I started using self harm as a way to cope with my anxiety. I remember the first time, I was so mad at myself for not being able to talk to a group of friends at a party. I left early. When I got home, I got so mad I cut my fingers on the back wire of my braces. Whenever I got anxious I would continue this behavior. Eventually I st...

Today I want to talk to you about relationships. I haven't dated very many guys but I like to think that every guy has taught me something. I didn't start dating until I was seventeen. If there is one piece of advice I can tell you is, wait until you are older to date. I can not imagine dating at like twelve or thirteen like kids do nowadays. The first guy I dated taught me the pain of heartbreak. I remember how bad the first heartbreak hurts. But the next time, it won't be so bad. The first heartbreak taught me to be stronger. The second guy taught me you shouldn't force a romantic relationship. You can't force chemistry, no matter how hard you try. The third taught me a lot. He bandaged my emotional wounds. He taught me how to love again, that feeling wasn't a sign of weakness. There was days I would just cry and cry and he would hold me close. Sadly he stopped being that person. Instead of building me up, he started tearing me down. He taught me that peop...

Hi Everyone, It's been so many years since I have posted on my blog. I decided I would start again, now that I'm older I've learned a lot of tough life lessons. Growing up is hard, a lot has happened these past six years. For one, I'm in college now! Who cares about these things, I don't know but if me sharing my life helps at least one other person not feel alone then it is worth it. Signing off for now, Lily