to all the boys i've loved
Okay so this post is cheesy and silly but I recently watched To All The Boys I've Loved on Netflix and I thought it might be fun to write about all the boys I've loved. So let's start. I'll be using initials so if you really know me you might figure out who these people are but oh well. I did have a lot of crushes as a kid but these are the ones that stuck out to me.
The first boy was JV. I was six/seven years old and he was four years older. He was friends with my brother at church. I would chase him around church and we almost kissed in front of the youth building but he told me he hadn't brushed his teeth in a week. I think I was probably more infatuated with him than actual love, but I swear I thought I'd marry him.
The second boy was my neighbor, H. His parents were divorced so he hopped back and forth between parents. We would play outside and also we would write letters to each other sometimes. We were both eight. I kissed him on the cheek once and wiped my mouth off right after, it was gross. He moved away when I was probably around nine or ten. When he said goodbye he gave me a side hug and started crying. I think he loved me too.
Okay now we getting to the juicy stuff. Middle school and high school.
The fourth boy was a guy in my homeschool group. He sat by me at a Christmas party and our thighs touched. In my eighth grade mind that was like totally ~flirting~. I had an obsession with B for awhile. On my fourteenth birthday I had a party at the rollerskating rink. He happened to be there, and my friends dared me to ask him for his number. So I did in front of his siblings. He said. "I don't know". I still tried to give him those ~flirty~ eyes but turned out he had a girlfriend already. I think he's still a great dude but jeez I was creepy.
The fifth boy was another guy in my homeschool group, NT. He was the first guy I fully hugged that wasn't family. And we held hands once. He grabbed my hand behind another person while we were taking a photo. I totally thought he liked me back but he kinda was friendly with everyone. But I crushed on him from freshman year of high school until nearly junior year.
The sixth boy was my first boyfriend. He was my first kiss. It was kinda middle schoolery since we both hadn't dated anyone before. It was cute and innocent. We were good friends too.
The seventh guy was someone I knew junior and senior year of high school. I actually crushed on him before the first boyfriend, but I don't think he liked me. Or he just didn't know it because all I would do was glance at him during the school day. Maybe throw in a wink or two. We go to the same college now.
The eighth boy was a guy in college. We talked for four months until I found out he had a girlfriend the entire time. He was a jerk for sure. He bought me chicken once and we would go to bible study together. But he really was a ~cheater~. Hope you're doing good CC.
The ninth boy was another guy in college. We had a thing for each other, never "officially" dated. He was protective of me and sweet. He appreciated my performing side as we were both in theater. The last night I saw him was graduation, he kissed me goodbye.
The tenth boy was my third boyfriend/ex-fiance. He was someone I needed during that time, but life changes and you move on.
So to all the boys I've loved.
I know I fall in love much too easily. I'm not a person who casually dates, it's just not for me. I see people based on their heart. It's how they treat others. It's the way someone's eyes sparkle, or the sound of their laugh. I love deeply and I know some people I can't accept that, but I know one day someone will.
The first boy was JV. I was six/seven years old and he was four years older. He was friends with my brother at church. I would chase him around church and we almost kissed in front of the youth building but he told me he hadn't brushed his teeth in a week. I think I was probably more infatuated with him than actual love, but I swear I thought I'd marry him.
The second boy was my neighbor, H. His parents were divorced so he hopped back and forth between parents. We would play outside and also we would write letters to each other sometimes. We were both eight. I kissed him on the cheek once and wiped my mouth off right after, it was gross. He moved away when I was probably around nine or ten. When he said goodbye he gave me a side hug and started crying. I think he loved me too.
Okay now we getting to the juicy stuff. Middle school and high school.
The fourth boy was a guy in my homeschool group. He sat by me at a Christmas party and our thighs touched. In my eighth grade mind that was like totally ~flirting~. I had an obsession with B for awhile. On my fourteenth birthday I had a party at the rollerskating rink. He happened to be there, and my friends dared me to ask him for his number. So I did in front of his siblings. He said. "I don't know". I still tried to give him those ~flirty~ eyes but turned out he had a girlfriend already. I think he's still a great dude but jeez I was creepy.
The fifth boy was another guy in my homeschool group, NT. He was the first guy I fully hugged that wasn't family. And we held hands once. He grabbed my hand behind another person while we were taking a photo. I totally thought he liked me back but he kinda was friendly with everyone. But I crushed on him from freshman year of high school until nearly junior year.
The sixth boy was my first boyfriend. He was my first kiss. It was kinda middle schoolery since we both hadn't dated anyone before. It was cute and innocent. We were good friends too.
The seventh guy was someone I knew junior and senior year of high school. I actually crushed on him before the first boyfriend, but I don't think he liked me. Or he just didn't know it because all I would do was glance at him during the school day. Maybe throw in a wink or two. We go to the same college now.
The eighth boy was a guy in college. We talked for four months until I found out he had a girlfriend the entire time. He was a jerk for sure. He bought me chicken once and we would go to bible study together. But he really was a ~cheater~. Hope you're doing good CC.
The ninth boy was another guy in college. We had a thing for each other, never "officially" dated. He was protective of me and sweet. He appreciated my performing side as we were both in theater. The last night I saw him was graduation, he kissed me goodbye.
The tenth boy was my third boyfriend/ex-fiance. He was someone I needed during that time, but life changes and you move on.
So to all the boys I've loved.
I know I fall in love much too easily. I'm not a person who casually dates, it's just not for me. I see people based on their heart. It's how they treat others. It's the way someone's eyes sparkle, or the sound of their laugh. I love deeply and I know some people I can't accept that, but I know one day someone will.
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